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If…
If eight year-old me, Fat, alone, sad, and scared, Had been thin and restricting, Would somebody have cared? If eighteen year-old me, Away from home that first time, Had lost weight and not gained it, Would they have noticed the signs? If twenty-eight year-old me, Purging regularly, Had lost even more weight, Would they have…
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Two unlikely tools that helped my eating disorder recovery.
Looking back, way back to the beginning, I am starting to see how my eating disorder began. I’m starting to realise the functions that bingeing served. Because bingeing, and all eating disorder behaviours, happen for a reason. They serve a purpose. Even if we don’t realise it at the time. For me, two purposes of…
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Ice-cream: The Final Frontier
I’ve been practising intuitive eating for a good two or three years now. I’ve discovered I’m not particularly a biscuit person, I’m not addicted to chocolate, stale crisps are not nice, mature cheeses are too strong, and I feel better in myself when I add in gentle nutrition. So why was I still struggling with…
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Stolen Years
Allowing myself to feel, To cry, To realise just how much you stole from me. Peace, inner calm, The strength to be myself. The courage to admit just how terrified I was. Sapping my self-esteem Till I felt worthless, unworthy of any joy. The feeling of dread That they would all realise I was a…
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Time to Talk Day 2023
#TimeToTalkDay is a day of conversations about mental health. It’s a day to check in with others, share experiences, and most of all, to challenge stigma around mental illness. Even though the Time to Change campaign is no more, the day is still marked by Mind, Rethink Mental Illness, Co-op, and of course, those Champions…
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Blue skies
I’m slowly learning to see blue skies When I was taught to see the grey The thunderclouds of disappointment The sharp lightning strikes of shame I’m starting to see the marvel of rainbows Fractured light through drops of rain The hidden beauty found when sorrow Gives way to hope as life begins again I will…